- Sarah Kay, excerpt from “The Type” (via penthas)
I know that I may come off as a rude ungrateful child, but I am glad to have what I have. That’s exactly why I don’t do drugs, get good grades, don’t get in fights, clean my room, make right choices. You might think I am lazy and irresponsible, but I do as I am told and try hard to not lose my things or my head. So why is it that you are constantly disappointed with me, why do you think I am all that I am not when I simply say what is in my mind. I don’t mean it to hurt others; trust me I go back and think about it wishing I had said nothing. I don’t mean to yell or talk in an unusual tone, but sometimes you do the same to me and it hurts. You often talk about the things you used to do as a kid and how you look back at all those fun times. I don’t have those memories, I am trying to make my own. I often feel like I try too hard to satisfy others, but I just don’t want to disappoint others and especially you. I acknowledge the sacrifice you have done for me, and trust me I feel like I am making one for you too. I don’t blame you or anyone else. I simply want to understand why you hurt so easily and why I do too. So I hope that one day you realize that I talked back not because I was ungrateful or rude or a teenager, but because I need to learn that it is okay to not have to satisfy others at all times. It is okay to be wrong because I know that you have been wrong before also; so, forgive me please. I sure do. I am sorry and I love you.